Monday, January 22, 2007
Monday
I wake up feeling heavy... my body feels like lead. Every bone in it hurts.. my face hurts, the ends of my hair hurt. In church yesterday, we sang a hymn about going in and each doing good using their God-given gifts.. i cried like a baby. It is beyond wierd that I cry without provocation. I tried to clean house today and , unlike every other day of my life, i don't care if it gets done. Somehow, i feel guilty that i have a house to clean. I look at my baby and my animals and think of all the people who have lost everyone and everything they love and it just breaks my heart. I sit in the middle of my living room and cry for all the babies and animals that have lost their mamas and daddies... God, if the pain i am feeling is even one one hundredth of someone that survived Katrina, it is unimaginable. I don't understand why there aren't hundreds of thousands of people there, working house by house until everyone has a house, a home and things to put in it... Why?? I am going back as soon as I can and I will keep going back until New Orleans is whole again. I have to. I have to.
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Katrina Came In..
It was all gone. gone with the wind and water...
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We've all been changed, haven't we?! I took the day off today and I can only say I am still exhausted! I shared about the experience with my hairdresser as he cut and colored my hair.(no longer blonde!) It was so difficult to put into words, but he knows me well, and was able to appreciate what I felt! The experience really puts things into perspective. I hope I will be more empathic and helpful to my clients as I return to work. Wow!
"Re-entry" has certainly been its own process for me as well. I've been back since January 6th, and still every day I am still processing all that I thought, felt, experienced (and yes smelled!) there.
I strive to meet each day with the hope of the people I met there. I try to live with the sense of gratitude that they so freely express, and I too am compelled to return as soon as I can.
I am holding each of you in my thoughts, heart and prayers as you continue this journey. I hope we can meet to hug, weep and celebrate all that is the Gulf Coast and the work that continues there.
With Love and Hope,
Barbie
Redlands United Church of Christ
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